There's a reason for every thing...

It was 3 months ago when my husband Joey died from a motor accident, 10 days after our wedding. It was not really easy for me, for being in that condition, I was on my 4^th month way that time.

Joey and I had been together for seven years before this little angel yield in me. When we found out about my pregnancy, we immediately settled on to have our wedding 3 months after. January 23, 2010 when we held our Wedding day. We were very happy because finally we are now married couple plus the baby inside was a great blessing. But after so many joyful feelings, they changed into sadness and sorrow. February 03, the day my husband died was really a big mess for me. I couldn’t believe that this will happen, he is a very good person… they said it was the real reason why God took him back so easy. Sometimes I ask Him why of all people, He chose Joey to be with him that early. He hasn’t seen his daughter yet, he’s very excited of having a baby but how is it now? He cannot carry her in his hands because he is now gone. Until now it is really painful to me, it caused deep wounds in my heart. It’s really hard to accept but certainly I have to… they always say that God has His own reason for everything. Maybe time will tell, time can heal all the pains it caused me.

I know it’s not good to ask God why it had happened. On this time I’m suffering from deep sorrow, I heard about our neighbor’s death. She’s not really a close friend of mine but I know her since I was a child. She’s only 23 years old and pregnant. The night of election, 1:45 am, there was a guy, he’s an addict and was drunk… maybe he was out of his mind that time. He has a gun on his hand and intentionally he hit the girl. The girl is on her due month that time. Unfortunately, she and the baby inside her died because they both hit by the gun. She was rushed in the hospital (trauma center) but she didn’t survive because there was no available doctor on that said hospital. How could it be? No doctor inside a hospital… it was really hospital’s fault because they didn’t try to revive the patient or even the baby inside her womb. She lost much blood and that was the cause of their death.

It was really sad. I really pity the baby inside her. When I feel so pity about myself, I think of them and think of the other people died from a grave cause. The death of that girl is worst than Joey’s death. The guy who killed the baby and the mother will surely go to hell. He has no conscience. He’s really bad. Every time I hear about those kinds of people, I can’t control myself asking God why he’s not getting those kinds. But I know God has his own plan.

Now I realize that I shouldn’t ask God why He took Joey that early. I’m not so miserable than the others. He has His own reason for everything. I just don’t know what it is now. But I will wait for it.